This too, shall pass.

March 3, 2009
NYC

Helmut Newton said in his autobiography that no one wants to hear about how someone is successful, it is only the struggle to get there that is worth reading. I get his point. No one wants to hear about how wonderful it is to be adored by the world, its inelegant.

So, as I leave LA for a trip of indeterminate length to NYC, as I walk away from a 6 year relationship due to irreconcilable differences, I am broken. To add insult to injury, I have been rejected by 4 different galleries of late, did not win a particular grant that I thought I would be a great candid for and I feel stuck creatively.

I am supposed to be in NYC to pitch my commercial work, getting meetings with art buyers and etc etc, yet I have been here for two days now and I barely want to go outside. I feel broken.

As I try to catch up with news via blogsphere today, I learned that Trent Reznor of Nine Inch Nails has decided that they will do one last tour with Janes Addiction (in celebration of NIN’s 20 year anniversary) and then Trent will put NIN to sleep, for a while, maybe for good. Ironically, the movie “Singles” is on TV as I type. Remeber alternative rock? Can’t help but find the irony that some of my favorite bands will be celebrating their 20th anniversary this year or the next and that I am old enough to remember these things. I have always been a little damaged, but now, I feel old and broken.

All which really just reminds me that, “this too, shall pass.” No matter how good times are, no matter how broken I feel, the good and the bad shall all pass in exchange for something new, something else. I just hope that I can summon the inner Asian overachiever here soon and get back to overachieving.

I shall end with this quote my fellow friend / brilliant artist Kesha Bruce posted on her blog today:
“Forget past mistakes. Forget failures. Forget everything except what you’re going to do now and do it.”– William C. Durant